What I Forgot

I was engrossed in writing about all the people that I "re-met" that I forgot something. It's kind of random, but it's kind of what I learned from that hollow-eyed girl.
So what I had written...
"There was this other girl who was very quiet. She barely talked to me even though we sat like next to each other the whole year (in seventh grade). I used to try to talk to her once in a while. She was clearly a nice person. But she had this hollow look in her eyes sometimes... it really scared me. She was like empty... or not even seeing you there. Then she turned out to be the only person I knew in my first two classes last semester. Now we are best friends!"
What I need to add in:
When she always looked at me like that I wondered what she thought of me. I was looking for what judgment she placed on me. Then when I got to know her it dawned on me. Most people, myself included, are used to stereotypes, but I think that look she gave me was empty because she hadn't judged me. And that may be because of our lack of conversation or perhaps neither or us seemed to find it important to get to know each other. But I guess I only realized a while ago that about 2 years ago she was not thinking I was strange and weird like I thought.

People Will Surprise You...

I've met too many people that I could never imagine knowing the way I do now. Well... meaning when I first met them I wouldn't have pictured things the way they are now.
Like this one girl, was totally vicious to me! She liked hated me when we were 8. At the beginning of this year I met her again (she had moved away) and I recognized her so I decided to say hi. Now we hang out a lot! She's pretty sweet, so she's easy to hang out with.

Then there was this popular girl who well I barely ever talked to (I wonder why...) and last semester in gym class we were talking and she says, "I heard you didn't like me." I wanted to say "I don't even know you!" I kind of thought that she was a "follow the grapevine type" other than that I barely have an opinion on her. But I am guilty of thinking that we were likely to be polar opposites. Then this semester I ended up grouped with her for a project. No big deal I guess. Except... no one other then the two of us were present on the day we had to work on the project in class. There wasn't a lot to do, so we ended up talking quite a bit. I figured she's okay. Then that question came up. She asked "So do you like anybody?" I never got why people other then like best/ really close friends would care. Either way I said yes. My first instinct is to respond truthfully, my second (and slower) reaction is to lie if I have to. I had no intention of telling her his name. But she guessed it. I never in a million years would have thought she would have guessed it right! She said his name and no jokes I fell off my chair! Funny thing is ... she likes him too! which I also would have never guessed

Hahahaha :(

There was this other girl who was very quiet. She barely talked to me even though we sat very close to each other the whole year in seventh grade. I used to try to talk to her once in a while. She was clearly a nice person. But she had this hollow look in her eyes sometimes... it really scared me. She was like empty... or not even seeing you there. Then she turned out to be the only person I knew in my first two classes last semester. Now we are best friends!

Of course on the sad side then my best friends from when I was eight might not be my best friends anymore. Well one of them certainly isn't. I have no idea about the other one... but I still want to be her friend. Ironically this one friend I met at a summer camp when I was new in town. Then before my first day of school I wished on a star that at school there would be someone I already knew... to make it easier. I couldn't believe it when I saw her. I was shocked and happy. Mostly happy of course. A little girl will take any miracle.

Ah well, the world just keeps on spinning.

Touching Glass Windows

Have you ever touched glass?
And it felt so warm?
I can see right through it... and most times I simply do
But I don't look at it
Because it must be translucent and devoid of substance
Nothing of importance to acknowledge
But when it's so warm I realize
It did what I could never do...
It caught the sun
I can see the sun when I look in it
And I feel it's fire
But I could never reflect the sun's light like that...

Have you ever touched glass?
And it looked so wet and felt so cold?
When it's so wet I realize
It did what I could never do...
It caught the rain
With every little droplet clinging on to it
And I feel every drop that is the rain's kiss
But I could never catch that gentle rain's touch and hold it forever
I can not be more than just me

Becoming Past Tense

What happened to what was?
Why does it seem there is no will be?
I understand that there is a power of now... but even that is slipping through the cracks
I can practical still feel the memories of long long phone conversations that went until curfew and we had no idea why we called... we just came to each other naturally
We made up stories of fantasies... of what we wanted
We imagined being sisters and never losing sight of that
We kept no secrets
I knew you as much as I knew me
I could blame me or just time altogether
This day a few years ago was my last day
I woke up and disappeared just before turning twelve and I lost you amongst other people
The worst part of it is that you are still so close by
Does it have to turn into just memories and pictures
These past things?
Weren't we going to be friends forever?