6/11/10

Childhood Is Calling

They were in the middle of the road, screaming and yelling... playing, like only they can.
A bike scattered here, a basketball over there.
But they moved when they saw us, and I watched them as I passed by.
I liked being there. On the outside looking in...
Into their lives of laughter and play.
I breathe in... smell that? It's spring.
Fresh grass, stained on your faded jeans. Flower petals in your hair.
I remember.
Everything was so new, a discovery
Wonder was easily fulfilled with my findings
But at the same time the curiousity never stopped growing
To be free was as simple as to run or jump
Soar in the air with your arms outstretched
You're an aeroplane. A bird. Anything.
I watch these children for only a few seconds
Do you think they realise what they have right now... that this happens only once?
I wonder.

6/7/10

Priceless

"Water, 35 litres. Carbon, 20kg. Ammonia, 4 litres. Lime, 1.5kg. Phosperus, 800g. Salt, 250 g. Niter, 100g. Sulphur, 80g. Fluorine, 7.5g. Iron, 5g. Silicon 3g. And fifteen other elements. Those are the elements to make an average adult human body. You can buy these elemental ingredients at the market with the pocket money of a child. Humans are made so cheaply." -Fullmetal Alchemist

It's a funny thing to look into someone's eyes and see yourself. Like, wow... there I am, in that person's pupil. I mean... we don't see ourselves except when we look into a mirror. It's like our names, we always hear them, but don't usually say them.
And then we're completely obsessed with how we look and having titles. Being successful, being a particular face and a recognizable name.
I am this. And that. ... A (insert job title here). Their (insert relation here). A picture, a label.
As if that could satisfy the quest to find ourselves... I think we deserve higher status than a soup can.
We're so much more than names and faces. We're more than even people. We are opinions, we are emotions, we are secrets. It makes everything so interesting...
I mean, I appreciate science, but sometimes I find that people ask 'why?' too much. And usually it's the scientists. While studying evolution in school, a girl just said, 'I'm against this just because not everything should be explained.' I really got why she'd say that. I think appreciating things simply as they are has something precious to it. It's the beauty behind magic, you know? Not knowing makes it all the more wonderous.
That's why a soul is so transfixing. Because you don't know what it is, how to make it, how to break it, or why we have it. It keeps you alive though, like really alive. It makes all the difference between blankly just staring at something and really seeing it. What makes all that happen? I sure don't know. But that's just why it's magical. I think it's the only thing keeping us from being cheap.
It's what makes us... us.
The quote above is from an anime I love. Basically the speaker is pointing out how you should be able to make humans just like you might bake a cake. As if it were that simple. But, while our bodies may be cheap, we as people are not. We have minds and souls and hearts. None of which is tangible. Sure, you have a tangible heart that pumps blood, but doesn't love, and a tangible brain that controls our body, but isn't curious.
Maybe that doesn't bring you any closer to knowing who you really are, or where you're supposed to go in life... but I think it makes not knowing all of it feel a bit more okay.
I think it makes it okay to say, 'I am simply me.' I think it makes us priceless.