Shut Out

For days now she's been running through those empty corridors, chasing after every open door. But every single last one.... slams in her face.
Too late...
She turns around to see the mess she's made and crys for help.
It was sudden, but then it wasn't... shouldn't she have known all this would happen? That she could make the same mistakes twice?
She pounds on the doors but they never open.
Her tears spill to the floor.
She gets up and does the only thing she can- she starts to run again. And she runs... and runs, and runs.
But she gives up now. Her back sliding down the wall.

"Won't you help me?" she whispers

"Can't you hear me?" she shouts, "I hate you for leaving me!"

And she hates not hating them at all.

Sunshine and Happiness

And just like that it came to me. I knew why I loved that place so much.
It made energy like sunshine that gave me so much power. It was positivity and light I could... I could feed off of. I didn't realize how much I thirsted for it before.
It was the same feeling of going on rollercoasters in the summer. Being able to scream at the top of your lungs, being so high up, feeling so care free.
It had the same feeling of being in the shower and having your tears dissolve into the drops of water and be erased as if pain never exsisted.
It had the same feeling of being given a hug by your best friend, one that is so strong, you feel like you will never fall again because this hug will hold you up.
It is simply the most nourishing energy for a soul, but one you can be starved of and never even know.
It is happiness.